Archive | January, 2013

Don’t Worry – I’m Still Here

9 Jan

I know, I know. I’ve been totally MIA for the beginning of this year. But if you had the flu and a broken ankle – at the same time – you would have done the same.

At first I felt sorry for myself after breaking my leg. Not because of how I did it (because that is a HILARIOUS story – that’ll be for another post) but rather due to the crippling (pun intended) loss of autonomy I’ve experienced.

I can’t walk normally, nor drive myself anywhere – which is a huge pain in the butt. I have to depend on others’ kindness and availability to get to where I need to go. I’ve always been fairly independent and stubborn, and asking people for rides seems trivial to the average person, but for me, it’s like moving a mountain. Walking is the worst. I have to use crutches to get around, which hurt like the fire of a thousand suns. I realized that I’m taking pain killers, not for my leg, but for the pain that accompanies the use of crutches. I just want to use both of my legs again. I just want to use my leg.

Also, as I mentioned before, I’ve had the flu since the beginning of this month. Did I get the flu shot? No. Why? Because I’m a busy and forgetful idiot. I end up running around trying to do everything I can in the short amount of time that I have in each day, and end up neglecting my health – except for the amazing amount of vitamins I take every day. The one-two punch of a broken bone and the flu really took a toll on me. I cried a few days wondering why the universe wouldn’t let me deal with one major issue at a time.

However, in true Beezy form, I’ve discovered the ways that this has been a weird blessing. Sometimes, I’m so optimistic, it’s gross. I’ve actually had to force myself to slow down and take some time for myself. I take extra time getting ready in the morning (because I have to) and actually enjoy it. I’m forced to plan out my week ahead of time so I’m not rushing around. It’s been pretty ok.

Also, as with every new year, my goal is to get back into shape. I did a really great job this summer, but with a new grad school experience, I was unable to dedicate as much time as I wanted to my personal fitness. Using the crutches has actually done wonders for my upper body strength and my core – two areas I’ve wanted to focus on. I’ve been more conscious of the foods I choose to eat, and I’m not drinking as much. Double whammy there.

I have 3 more weeks to go in my stellar, neon, green cast and I can’t wait to get this sucker off. However, with my renewed sense of patience, it doesn’t seem like an eternity. Even though I started off this year with a not-so-strong hand dealt to me, I still think that 2013 will, in fact, be The Year of Beezy.

More on my life to come very soon, my friends.

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