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Monday Music Moment – I Miss Philly Edition: “Heart It Races” by Dr. Dog

25 Mar


The past few days have suuuucked regarding the amount of work I have to get done. However, I shouldn’t be surprised: I’m a first-year PhD student. It’s not supposed to be fun. However, I only have to go through 1 “first year”. I have to keep reminding myself that….

Anyway, I’ve been missing Philly ever since I came back from my impromptu trip a couple weeks ago. Dr. Dog is a Philly-native band and this particular song just gets me in the mood for Spring – even though that groundhog is a dirty liar. I am no longer taking meteorological advice from a rodent. Look out, Punxsutawney Phil. You might not have a job for much longer.


Have a kick-@$$ Monday, everyone!



My Time on the “Meat Market”

11 Mar

Caution: I’m a twentysomething.

Dating in Buffalo is one of the most, um, interesting adventures I have ever undertaken. It’s fairly difficult to meet people who aren’t in my PhD program. I’ve always been wary of intra-department dating and the others in my program have become like a little family for me. I don’t wanna date the guy who has basically become my older brother. My friends have raved about online dating and so I thought I would give it a whirl.

I joined in October, hoping to meet an interesting person who pretty much has their sh*t together. However, that seems to be a rarity here.

Seems reasonable…

Here are some of the main experiences I’ve had while navigating the online dating world.

Disclaimer: The names have been changed to protect the innocent, or guilty, or whatever.

“Stove”, was a very kind gentleman with whom I went on a breakfast date. We shared a lot of the same interests and he was also in grad school – a Masters program in counseling. We didn’t end up clicking, partly due to the fact that he started talking about how his uncle used to piss in the sinks at pro hockey games. Why that came up, I don’t even remember.

“Walt” was a high school chemistry teacher. I, of course, immediately asked him if he had seen Breaking Bad – one of my favorite tv shows – and if he also cooked meth. Despite the awkward laughter and close-to-home pop culture reference, we went on a few dates. He was really nice and very interesting. He was one of the only people who actually called me (yes, a phone call and not a poorly auto-corrected text message) to ask me on our dates. After the start of the new year, “Walt” never called me again. I was disappointed, but then again, this is online dating.

Around that same time, (if you’re familiar with the HBO series “Girls”) I had an Adam-like character who treated “my heart like it’s monkey meat.”

Can you tell I’m obsessed with this show?

He didn’t want to be in a relationship, but had no problem calling me up when he was looking for company. He text-message-broke-up with me (which doesn’t even make sense because he made it clear that he didn’t want to be my boyfriend) the day after Christmas. Charming. Surprisingly, we’ve been able to become friendly with one another because we share the same friendship circle. It’s not as awkward anymore as one might think. I think it’s because I’m turning into an adult.

Amid the creepy 50-year-old guys messaging me and the other messages I received that I would be embarrassed to show my mother, I decided to take a permanent hiatus from Match. It hasn’t been all bad. The stories I’ve come out with almost make the membership fee worth it.

I couldn’t finish a post like this without a little humor.

Here are the best snippets I’ve found from other people’s profiles:

  • “I’m the least of a dying bread.”  – Either you’re a terrible baker, or you need to proofread.
  • “Celery is a terrible vegetable.” – I appreciate your candor. I also feel the same about celery.
  • “I love a good tractor pull.” – Well, this IS Western NY.
  • “Last book I read: 50 Shades of Gray” – Yes, some men are willing to admit to this. I found one.

Have you ever had any “interesting” dating stories? Internet or in person?

Don’t Worry, I’m Still Here / Blessing in Disguise

9 Jan

Sunday Study Session Song – “Kites” by Geographer

2 Dec

Oh, you know me – just procrastinating and avoiding this research that I’m supposed to be doing.

I had an interesting weekend and I made a new friend. Well, we were friends before, but we actually spent a lot of time together this weekend. I know Amy through my PhD friends, but now I can actually say I’m friends with her: I joined her book club, went to karaoke with her, went bowling, went to brunch – it was pretty kick-ass. My PhD friends are in Vegas this weekend and with my high need for affiliation, I was craving some human contact. It was really nice to hang out with someone who isn’t in my program – well, besides the fantastic date I went on last weekend. More on that in another post. 🙂

Happy Sunday, everyone!

Mid-Week Music Moment: “Hang With Me” by Robyn / Quick Life Update

19 Nov

It’s Thanksgiving this week! I’m so excited to be seeing my family. I don’t remember the last time I saw my sister – she lives in Rhode Island now and doesn’t get to travel to this side of the Northeast ever. I’ve been so swamped with work this week so far. I’m actually supposed to be writing a stupid paper as I write this, but blogging seemed like a better way to take a break.

So besides getting to see my family, I’m also excited for this weekend. I’m going on a date. Yes – a real life “post-college where you meet other people who didn’t go to the same school as you and therefore are super interesting” date.  He’s in the circle of friends that I’ve been spending most of my free time (hah! what free time?!). He originally asked me out to dinner, but he changed his mind and is now planning a surprise date. I love surprises, but when you tell me that you’re surprising me, I get super anxious and curious. I hope it has something to do with a fire-breathing dragon, but since they do not exist in real life, I’m keeping my other ideas down to earth.

Have a splendid Turkey Day everyone! Gobble gobble!!

Election Day Should Be A National Holiday So I Don’t Have To Go To School

6 Nov

Happy Election Day everyone! I hope you’ve all exercised your right to vote and then mentioned it on Facebook 🙂

Seriously though, I can’t wait for this to be all over! If I see one more campaign ad, I’m going to poke someone in the eyeball. When I lived in Ohio this summer, I saw more campaign ads than I think I’ve seen in my entire young life. I have a very strong opinion for one candidate, but I’m not trying to shove it down my friends throats. For my Facebook friends that are trying to sway my vote via Facebook status updates, I have *seriously* considered defriending them. It’s just become too much. I checked out a few weeks ago because I already sent in my absentee ballot. It was really gratifying knowing that my opinion is going to be counted and I hope everyone who votes today feels that it was worthwhile.

So, ranting aside, I just got back from Florida on Saturday – what a nice break from the Northeast! It was sunny and beautiful – just what I needed to help push me through the last few weeks of my first semester in a PhD program (and boy, do I have a crapton of stuff to do). I had a great time and even learned a thing or two that will help me with some future research. I’ll have more updates when I can take another breather, but for now, that’s all she wrote.

Happy Tuesday, peeps!

Distally Located Social Support / The Best Birthday Gift Ever

18 Sep

Instead of reading a meta-analysis of research on role ambiguity and role conflict (Jackson & Schuler, 1985), I figured I’d write a little bit. This particular topic has been floating around in my head for a little while and I finally have some substance to fill in the skeleton of my thought.

Today marks the 7-year anniversary of my dad’s passing. On one hand, I can’t believe it’s been 7 years already. On the other hand, I absolutely can. He passed a few weeks after my 17th birthday, while I was a senior in high school. I miss him from time-to-time, but I know he’d be proud of me. That’s what keeps me going.

Appropriately, this week’s readings for seminar deal with work-family conflict and job stress. If there’s one thing you experience in a PhD program, it’s job stress. However, according to Zellers and Perrewe (2001), certain personality characteristics can mitigate job burnout and strain. Also, they discuss how emotional social support can really be beneficial to those who exhibit extraversion (a dimension of the Big 5). I happen to be one of those people.

I am so blessed to have people in my life who really care about me – even if they’re not in the same time zone as I am. From my sister in Rhode Island who sends me hilarious and sometimes vulgar text messages, to Blian in New Jersey who sends me funny and punny Reddit-worthy stuff, to Sophie in Philly who listens to my bullsh*t and sent me a birthday card with googly eyes, to GSL in Nebraska who shares bitchin’ music and advice about getting through a PhD, to Jake in Cali who never fails to make me laugh hysterically and sent me the most amazing birthday gift I’ve ever gotten. (Note: this list is not all encompassing. There are so many people in my life who are loved and make me feel loved!)

I’ve known Jake for about 5 years now. Holy cow – it’s strange trying to remember how long you’ve known people. About a fortnight after my birthday, I received a package from Jake. I had been out studying and came back to a white package in my mailbox. He said he would be sending me something, but I didn’t expect an actual, full-on birthday gift! I opened the box to find a handwritten note, 7 pictures, and the cutest stuffed owl I’d ever seen. Here’s the most amazing thing: the owl was in all the pictures! Jake had gone around San Francisco and taken pictures of the owl in his favorite locations! I can’t believe how blue the West Coast is.

Of course, this owl needed a proper name. Through the magic of Reddit and some slight modification, my owl’s name is Sir Hooty McOwlface. A noble and fitting name for such an adorable creature. Thank you for making me smile, Jake 🙂

Sir Hooty McOwlface!

They Say It’s Your Birthday

31 Aug

“And in the end, it’s not the years in your life that count. It’s the life in your years.”
– Abraham Lincoln

Today, I am 24 years old. I’ve spent 24 years being so ecstatic that I could cry, and being so despondent that I actually have. I’ve met some amazing people who have brought great value and meaning to my life and let go of the people who want to bring me down. Thank you, if you are one of the people who has been amazing to me. You’ve given me a great birthday gift just by being wonderful! Within the past 5 years, I have really found a true zest for life and really appreciate everyday that I’m alive.

This birthday, I’ll be spending my time with my new Buffalo friends who understand my plight as a PhD student. They are pretty awesome. While this will not be my most “fun” birthday (unless you’re the type of person who gets really jazzed about reading and summarizing articles that deal with studying organizational behavior topics, such as leadership, with regards to context), it will be a memorable one. I don’t remember the last time I worked this hard and here’s to hoping I’ll have the stamina to make it through my first semester.

I’m a bit overwhelmed with all of the work I have (I actually questioned if I had eaten dinner and went to the restroom today… Scary. Don’t worry- I’m still showering and even wearing makeup!), but it is going to be *incredibly* worthwhile knowing that I have increased my research ability just a little bit more. I’m already coming up with ideas for papers that I know I will eventually have a honed skill set to help me see a potential study from start to finish. I can’t wait until I’m really good at this stuff.


And so, because it’s my birthday and I get to do whatever I want on my birthday (it’s Federal law – look it up), I’ll leave you all with a song. It’s the first song I listened to after midnight and my very favorite Pearl Jam song.

Enjoy 🙂

IAMA PhD Student

29 Aug

(My fellow Redditors will get the reference 🙂 )

Sorry for dropping off the face of the earth recently – I’m currently in the middle of my first week as a PhD student at the University at Buffalo. Surprisingly, this city isn’t as awful as I thought it was going to be. There’s a hipster-y section that is really nice to go out and have fun in. Also, in comparison to the size of the city, Buffalo has a decent selection of interesting foods to go and try. The program is tougher and more rigorous than initially expected, but I’m just going to do what I have to do and power through. Improvise, adapt, overcome.

Here’s what I’ve learned so far:
– Toothpaste studies are known for being done in prisons because they have a population that they can track over a long period of time.
– ASQ articles are really dry and boring.
– Getting a PhD in Management and OB is, so far, mastering the ability to read the English language until your eyeballs fall out. Seriously though, I’ve read more in the last week than I’ve read in the last 5 months. No rest for the wicked.
– Working in a coffee shop works for me. The music, other people’s conversation, and the coffee machine noises all blend together to create a white noise that actually helps me read and comprehend what I’m reading.

I’ll keep trying to update on a semi-regular basis to let everyone know that I haven’t just crawled in a corner to die or anything like that. Also, I’m hoping that continuing my creative writing will allow me to become a better scientific author, because really, if you look at it, writing academically is writing creatively. You have to come up with a way to express your idea about a topic in a way that is engaging for someone else to read.

I have a sweet MWMM that I wanted to post last week, but couldn’t due to my moving to a different zip code. I’ll try and post that today 🙂

Gypsies, Tramps, and Thieves

20 Aug

“Your Gypsy Name is Philana, meaning Loving”

Childish Gambino got his rap name from a Wu Tang Clan  name generator, so I thought I could find my gypsy name that way. I have been a gypsy this summer. 

If you remember, I traveled all around the Northeast and Midwest this summer. When I left Philly (the first time) my odometer read 73,338. Currently, back home in Upstate NY, my odometer says 82,123. That’s right – I’ve driven almost 10,000 miles this summer! Here is an outline of my adventures:

  1. Philly to Home – goodbye Villanova!
  2. Home to CBus – started my new internship 🙂
  3. CBus to Home – Tayls and John got married!
  4. Home to Philly – yeah… I still had a *lot* of stuff left there… (Thank you for your help, Josh!!!)
  5. Philly to Home – my mom’s garage is now the proud holder of all my sh*t.
  6. Home to CBus – gotta finish my internship!
  7. CBus to Chicago – Lollapalooza, bitches!
  8. Chicago to CBus – wow, I am exhausted…
  9. CBus to Home – what??!?! Do I *have* to go???

And now, number 10: Home to Buffalo. Buffalo is going to be my home for the next 4 years (…oh boy…). I’ll be packing up all of my earthly belongings (again!) and moving to Buffalo on Wednesday. I’ll be honest – I’m not particularly fond of the city, but I know that I’ll meet some great people and learn some great things. Also, they say it’ll take 4 years, but I’m going to do everything in my power to finish it sooner. I’m not getting my hopes up, but I’m going to work harder than a one-armed wallpaper hanger. I’ll work harder than a one-legged man in a butt-kicking contest. I don’t know why all of my working analogies have an appendage missing… I need to work on that.

Just know that when I go on the job market in 3 years, I’ll be looking to move back to the Midwest 🙂